Eternal Companion

Dear Eternal Companion,

I often spend time searching for you. I know you're out there and will hopefully meet you soon. Its possible we already have met or crossed paths. If there is any question I would want to ask God is where you currently are??? He may have even told me but, I didn't listen. Someday when I figure out my life maybe He will let me find you and take you to His house. I hope that time comes sooner than later. Im excited for the amazing kids that we will raise together. For the many service hours that we will do together to better the world around us. Im excited to be able to support you in the church callings that the Lord will give you. I promise to pray for you every time I fall to my knees. You will be the light of my life along with the kids that you will give me. I working on investing in our future as I attend college. Im not perfect and I want you to know that. I have so many things to work on but, I have a good heart and I try to do my best. I may not be the smartest or most handsome but, I will give you all that I can.

Your Future Husband,

Jake

The Heart

An organ that is so vital to life. We often associate it with love. The reason being I think is because love is essential to life. Everyone wants to feel loved. There are many kinds of love: family, friendship, and relationship love. Love is usually learned as we grow up in families. Our parents teach us what love is and how to show love. Love can be very much a feeling. Its hard to explain where it comes from but, all of us can feel it. The mind doesn't always agree with the heart. Sometimes we are torn between what our minds tell us and our hearts. Sometimes things make logical sense to us but, in our hearts we can tell something is wrong. I have often felt this struggle especially when it comes to making decisions. To make things difficult the Holy Ghost will tell us the truth of all things in both our heart and our minds. The Lord requires that we study things out in our minds and ask him with real intent. I feel like the Holy Ghost can give us answers in a way that is personal to us but, it often comes to me as a feeling in my heart. I struggle to understand what my heart tells me sometimes because it doesn't make logical sense. I'm a person that does things when they make logical sense but, also feel right. Often this results in a stand still because I don't know what to do because my heart tells me one thing and my mind says another. There are many questions that won't be answered because the Lord trusts us to make these decisions. I know that He will help guide me but, I can't help but feel lost sometimes.

Time and Thoughts

A lot of time has past since I have written on this blog. School just started this last week and I have reflected a lot on time. This last week was one of the busiest weeks Ive had in a while. One of the greatest gifts we can give other people is our time. Time is something that we will never get back no matter how hard we try. When we give others our time we show them that we care. Sometimes we can use very little time but, still show them that we care. I have focused on devoting quality time with the people I care about. I try to avoid using my phone constantly because that shows them that I don't value their time. Its so easy to waste time when we don't plan and are unorganized. I fall victim of this often. "When you fail to plan, you plan to fail." I'm not sure how busy I'm going to get with school, a job and my friends but, I plan on devoting time to God. Institute is an opportunity that I have to study the Lord gospel while learning at college. It what we do that defines who we become. The small daily tasks that amount to a lifetime. I'm not perfect but, I'm trying to become a better person. Remember that love is best spelled T I M E.

Be a Good Person

I just love it when I meet a person that I can easily tell that they genuinely care about other people. I feel like we tend to get so caught up in ourselves that we forget people around us who need our help. Sometimes its the small things that can make a persons day. Smiling at or saying Hi to someone is a simple thing that could mean the world to the other person. Sometimes all someone needs is someone they can talk to. I love the people in my life that drop what they are doing to listen to me. It means a lot to me. When other people need my help I try to be there for them. There are times I feel like I have failed at this. If we were all good people then the world would be so much more of a better place. I'm grateful to all the good people out there. You are true examples of the savior because He spent His life doing good.

Dear Future

The future is something we all look forward to at one point or another. What will the future hold? We do a lot of things to secure a good future such as going to school to have a good career. If we invest in our futures then we can have a bright hope in the days to follow. Its important to not reflect too much on the future for we could easily forget the present which in return effects the future. One of the most important question many of us want to know or see is whom we marry. There is no such thing as the one but, there are many people that a person could marry and be happy with. I am investing in my future and part of that future involves that person who will have a special part of my heart. I cant wait for the day when I take that special someone to the House of the Lord to be married for time and all eternity. I'm working on preparing myself for that day. I know that the Lord will not just give me everything I need or want. He expects me to work and do my part. He expects me to invest in my future today because tomorrow will be way too late.

Hard Decisions

I have recently been contemplating a hard decision that I need to make. It is a decision that could possibly change my future or where I am in the next few years. Decisions like this obviously require a lot of prayer but, I feel that sometimes the Lord just trusts us to make our own decisions. I hate making decisions sometimes because I want to make correct ones and sometimes it doesn't work out that way. Some of the bigger decisions I've made in the past have worked out really well. I'm at a point in my life that I feel like I'm not progressing which usually means something needs to change. I've become too comfortable in my life and that can be a bad thing sometimes. I feel like I'm getting old but, haven't found where I need to be. I have a major, an amazing family, a few good friends and a testimony of the restored Church of Jesus Christ. I love my family but, I can't stay with them forever because I need to have a family of my own. Honestly I feel lost sometimes in where I need to be and where I am going. I know that everything will work out the way it should. I just wish I could get a look at the future to know that it all worked out. I feel like a hopeless romantic sometimes. I dream of finding that special person that will help me create an eternal family. I have a road map called my patriarchal blessing but, it doesn't tell me how ill get there. Its something I can prepare for but, not know when it will happen. Until then I guess Ill just prepare and hope I make the right decisions. Maybe I need to trust in the Lord more. I'm a very imperfect person and have much to learn. All of this probably doesn't make much sense but, it helps me. I'm sure ill make the right decision and if not, I will learn from it.

People come and go.

I've learned that no matter how good of a person I am people constantly enter and leave my life. Some people come back to visit but, only ever so often. This makes me sad sometimes but, Ive learned that its a part of life. If everyone was a part of my life then I wouldn't have time for everyone no matter how hard I try. The most important people in my life are those who stay with me through this journey called life. One day hopefully sooner or latter I will meet that special girl who will stay with me for all eternity. People may only be in our lives for a short while but, its important that we help them along their way. Some people may require something from us and others will be there to help us. I seek out every opportunity I have to learn from the people I meet. I feel like everyone has something to teach me.

We all have 24 hours in a day.

Sorry I admit I haven't written for a long while. Do I have an excuse that Ive been way too busy? No not really. Life has kept me busy but, its not much of an excuse. We find time for things that we prioritize. It seems like we come up with excuses for almost every shortcoming we have. Honestly we shouldn't have them. We should just take complete responsibility of our lives. No one is perfect and yes life can be really hard but, we can accomplish anything we put our minds to. Its all about motivation and hard work. Everyone is given the same 24 hours in a day but, yet why are we not all equally successful? The answer is what we do with our time. I spend time going to school to learn and eventually obtain a career. I spend time doing homework so I will do well in those classes. I have a part time job to help pay my daily expenses. What I do with the rest of the time is usually up to my discretion. A lot is spent sleeping which is an important aspect of my health. Sometimes I spend my time doing pointless or useless things when I could have spent the time doing something more productive. I have thought a lot about my progression and what I am doing daily to become the person that I want to be. I have a ways to go because I'm not a perfect person by any means. I have many goals and things I want to accomplish. I am also preparing myself so that I can be a good father and husband to my future eternal companion.