Hard Decisions

I have recently been contemplating a hard decision that I need to make. It is a decision that could possibly change my future or where I am in the next few years. Decisions like this obviously require a lot of prayer but, I feel that sometimes the Lord just trusts us to make our own decisions. I hate making decisions sometimes because I want to make correct ones and sometimes it doesn't work out that way. Some of the bigger decisions I've made in the past have worked out really well. I'm at a point in my life that I feel like I'm not progressing which usually means something needs to change. I've become too comfortable in my life and that can be a bad thing sometimes. I feel like I'm getting old but, haven't found where I need to be. I have a major, an amazing family, a few good friends and a testimony of the restored Church of Jesus Christ. I love my family but, I can't stay with them forever because I need to have a family of my own. Honestly I feel lost sometimes in where I need to be and where I am going. I know that everything will work out the way it should. I just wish I could get a look at the future to know that it all worked out. I feel like a hopeless romantic sometimes. I dream of finding that special person that will help me create an eternal family. I have a road map called my patriarchal blessing but, it doesn't tell me how ill get there. Its something I can prepare for but, not know when it will happen. Until then I guess Ill just prepare and hope I make the right decisions. Maybe I need to trust in the Lord more. I'm a very imperfect person and have much to learn. All of this probably doesn't make much sense but, it helps me. I'm sure ill make the right decision and if not, I will learn from it.