Friends

This is a topic that I think about regularly. It brings me back to my younger years when I remember asking my Heavenly Father to help me make friends.This was a pretty continuous event because I wanted to make lots of friends. I've made a lot of great friends over the years. However some I am no longer in contact with or haven't seen in years. This makes me sad but, I realize its a part of life. I try to hard to please people sometimes which ends up pushing people away. I get along with almost anyone. I always find something that I share in common with them. I feel like people become disinterested in me after a while and they move on. One the worst feelings is being forgotten by your friends. This unfortunately has happened to me and I'm sure I have done it. Its hard to live in a world of imperfect people including myself. There is always a group of people that are happy to see me and that is my family. Someday I will find that special girl that loves me for who I am. For my crazy ideas and jokes. For my weird personality and my attention to detail. I cant wait to meet her if I haven't already. I know that God leads us to where we are needed most even if we don't understand why sometimes. Sometimes I wonder why I came to Cedar City Utah to go to school when there is a university in my home city. However I know that I am here for a reason. He has shown me many reasons why I am here. I still wonder what He has in store for me. Its easy to feel sad or alone sometimes even though I am around a lot of great people. I have one friend that I know I can always rely on besides Jesus Christ. He has been my great friend for the past year and a half. I know I met him for a reason because he has helped me so much and I don't think he even knows how much he has helped me. He is the kind of guy that will randomly just call me to say Hi. He invites me to everything he does almost even if its with his in-laws. He has helped me so much. He has been there when no one else has. If I need someone to talk to about something he is one of the first people I know I can call and know he will listen to me. I know he will always be my best friend for life. I have always tried to be a great friend but, I feel as if I fail a lot just like with dating. I care a lot about people and don't know how to show it sometimes.